Monday, March 10, 2008
I owe her my life; Her soul has it
All the love she gave to me, I will never ever get to pay her back.
She raised me up, and yet i'm not there when she let go of her last breath,
I'm not even there to say goodbye.
I started to forget how she looks like, and i hate myself for that.
Why am i always too late?
Why did she leave me this way?
'I love you'.... I hope she can hear me. I hope she knows.
'I miss you so much'... the times we had together- the fun; the sad times...
In me, she's still alive
She's there with me- in everyday i live; every breathe i take
Rest in peace 'momma'
I owe you my life, your soul have it.
Monday, January 14, 2008
Criticism
Then some people say that i need some changes to be a better person. I must admit that i'm not perfect. In fact, no one is perfect. But i'm not that bad also right? Yes i have my temper, i'm not lady-like , i'm kiddy and sometimes i can be really really rude. But that's me right? That's who i am and that makes me special. Dont you think so? That makes me the one and only Shadi in this world. No one can ever replace me. I mean NO ONE. BUT, i accept criticism quite well. As long as it's constructive and it's for my own good. And i'll try my best to eliminate all my bad habits, by changing. =)
The worse part is, some say that they dont understand me at times. Okay, this hurts. Alot. I wonder what do they mean with that. Do they really mean it when the words came out from them? Am i really that evil or confusing that people dont really get me sometimes? So let me tell you guys why am i being so hostile sometimes. Because i'm jealous or unhappy. Clear? I'm not as understanding as some people out there and i'm not as nice as them. HA! THAT'S WHY I WAS BEING SO HOSTILE AND OFFENSIVE. Like it or not.
Shadi.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Achmed the Dead Terrorist
Achmed the dead terrorist by Jeff Dunham.
Thanks to Gian for his recommendation. :)
My life in the past few months
But no matter how busy i am, i still managed to have some fun. :P
A Trip To The US Embassy & Wisma Putra
Ice Skating With My Girls In Sunway Pyramid!
It was mooncake festival!!! I love mooncake festival. We can eat mooncake with different flavours, colours and shapes... and most of all we can play TangLung (lantern)!!
see those small tanglungs in the pics?? i bought them few weeks before the festival. I was so excited and i cant wait to play. :p
Tim and his gf organized a bbq at Rawang. So all of us drove there to EAT & PLAY. We took our tanglungs and walked along the street. There was no one there except for few cars that passed by. I mean those drivers must be thinking that we're crazy. And it's kinda scary actually walking on the street at night with the reflection of the light from the tanglung on our faces. And we're scared that those wild dogs in that area will come and bite us to death. LOL.
So basically these are the summary of my life for the past few months. Well actually there are more. But i lazy to blog d... :)
Friday, November 23, 2007
Shadi's 22nd birthday!!!
" Go shadi, it's your birthday... we're going to party like it's your birthday~" ( something similar to what starscream like to say to me) LOL. Yes yes, a girl named Shadi was born on 14th November 22 years ago and that's me!
I'm officially 22 now!
My 22nd birthday was great. Not perfect but i had lots of fun and i was happy ( well, i didnt get drunk and wasted my big day :p). Milky bought a cake and a ring for me; Vaashant, Thari and Tim bought me a huge cake from secret recipe and we went for karaeok session for 4-5 hours; Qing and Hanu got me a birthday card and the best present for me this year is the warm wishes from my mom and brother, ALSO MY MOM's SPONSORSHIP FOR MY TRIP TO VIETNAM!! She was trying to make my dreams come true ( i was dying to travel ). But too bad the trip had been cancelled and i'm gonna get my money back from the organizer no matter what ( Damn angry la they tipu my money!).
cake bought by Vaashant, Thari and Tim and celebration at redbox the curve!!
singing! I'm addicted to singing! even though i cant sing well... hehe.
So back to the birthday thing. I was so touched when my long lost friends send me their warm wishes on my birthday. I must be blind all these years. I've forgotten about my real friends but i care for those who are just pretending to be friend. I refer these people as "Friendnemy". Which means an enemy who acts like a friend.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Pain strikes again
It's not like i've adopted an imsoniac lifestyle or what. But i've been thinking about her again.
I miss her and i wanted to see her so badly, before it's too late.
But i have no idea where she is...