Happy happy Saturday~

I'm suppose to blog about this few days ago. But hey, my results was too 'good' and i have to morn for it, duh...

Well, I met up with my best buddies (Bryant and his gf, also Alex) back in Penang last Saturday. We went to AutoCity for karaoke. It was fun until Avril Lavigne took away my voice!!!

After 3 hours of singing, shouting and laughing, we went for our nice nice dinner.


So we went to a nice nice japanese buffet restaurant in Autocity, Penang called 'tao'

And before we went in, i curi-curi peep inside...wow...it looks like this:

The environment was very very nice. But that's not where we sit in the end...sigh...

We ate alot....like 4 hungry ghosts. lol. what? buffet ma....must eat till our stomachs explode wat. This is my favourite Scallopps!!! i ate 11 of it!

Oh oh....dont forget the Sushi!!!

After we clear up all the food, our table looks like this: What a mess...

Then i went to the washroom before we left. Look at the sink! isk isk....cute kan?

Then we started to do all kind of nonsense outside the restaurant. That's Alex and me...the super heros!

And this one- goddess of the thousand hands!

Lol. What a lovely dinner. A happy time with my best buddies. Well Bryant already plan something for our next outing! Cant wait to go back to Penang again! lol.

Belated Fathers' Day + Screwed

Just came back from penang yesterday which is on a Fathers' Day. The long 4 hours ride were damn tiring.

I read about a Fathers' Day's dedication in Milky's blog. Well, glad that i was mentioned in the blog too where he said: "the person i love the most is my dad, mom and shahadah". I'm so touch that he loves me and i'm proud of him for the dedication.

But it makes me feel guilty for not spending more time at home with my dad but hang out with my best buddies for the whole saturday. And what i did on Sunday morning (which is Fathers' Day) was just a simple greeting for my dad. i said: "oh yeah, happy fathers day. i'm broke. can i replace the present next year?"

I'm such a messed up and miserable kid.

Even worse when my results for last semester were out later on yesterday night. The results for both my major courses were totally screwed. I mean SCREWED!! B and B-?? What the heck is that? Those 2 alphabets there make my pointer drop like hell.

Tears broke free in an instant. I cant believe this is happening to me. It's not that i skip class all the time or never hand in my assignments. The exams were even not really hard to answer. I used to get A's for my majors, so can somebody pls tell me what the hell is wrong?

I called mom up and told her about my results. I wonder whether she's disappointed. She consoled me and try to cheer me up. Talking about this makes me miss home already. The feeling of homesick that i once had is back. It's like a pain that try to re-enter my life. And it seems to me that this time, it's back to stay. Dreams broken, goals were washed away in 1 single moment...what else is there for me to hang on and continue this battle towards glory and success?

How i wish that my parents are here with me now.

Dad,

Thanks for everything you did for me. Thanks for sending me to school for an appropriate education. Thanks for still finacially supporting me. And thanks for many many things that you sacrificed for me that i didnt see.

Time passes by so quickly. you're getting older, so am i. But each and everyday, i realised that i love you and mom more and more.

I'm not a perfect daughter but i'll try to be one. I want you and mom to be proud of me someday, i'm working on it. I want to provide you guys the life that we cant afford to have before, and i'm still working on it. believe me i really do. I love u both, 'lou tao' and mommy.

Happy Belated Fathers' Day.

It's such a shame that I dont even have a picture of him with me now. I miss u daddy.
(picture obtained from www.yahoo.com)

Lost and Found

I cant manage to wake up this morning for class. Was having a slight headache.

I woke up around 9am+, it was such a wonderful morning. I felt happy and relaxing. Then i went to check out my babies. They were all sleeping soundly except for Fei Tan. She's not inside the cage like always which is normal. But wait a minute... she didnt even touch her food!? She loves to eat and yet she never touch her food?!!!? What the heck!?


I started to worry and start to search for her inside the room. No sign of her found. She's not under the closet that she likes to hide the most. She's not hiding underneath my bags. So where is she?


Outside the room? Nope....no sign of her as well. Where else can she be? It's 11.45am now and she's still missing.


I've been thinking: Why are you doing this to mommy? I love you so much. What am i gonna do without you making noise and stealing my food again? Dont you wanna share food with mommy anymore? Dont you miss me?


Then an hour later, we found you back. lol. I was so happy to see you again. Your hands and feet were so dirty and i know you're hungry and scared.


Do you know that Uncle Gary said he'll make 1 mini poster for you? He asked me to blog. He said maybe you'll surf the net and get to read my blog. lol. While Uncle Alwin said he'll buy me a new hamster. But i told him you'll never be replaced because others cant make me as happy as you did. And he can save his money now, because you're back.

Shadi: You will be grounded from now on. Less freedom for you. lol.

DreamLand

We have a house somewhere near the country side....
we have a big land, a farm
sheeps and cows are our main income
life is so relaxing....
somewhere in New Zealand or Europe
away from this cruel world
without barriers between us
happy life we live
together, you and me.

View of the dreamland from far. Houses, sheeps, us....

Our sons will be the coutry boys then. lol

What is Life (Part 2)

It's just few hours ago a friend of mine asking me all those silly questions and saying something like he gonna die soon. And few hours later.....

Andre:

" i dont know how many times I wished for death to come and pick me but she never did. "

" here my goal in existence i have a meaningless existence. i sleep, im busting my ass at my job and thats it."

"usually people dont do 9 nights of work in a row. i dont know how many people is able to do that."

"happy? i cant say if i'm happy. something is missing."

"maybe its love."

These friends of mine that i thought they're happy all the while, are not happy. One used to suffer from light depression; the other one feels like his life is incomplete with something missing. And he's lonely.

I love these friends of mine. i dont wanna lose them.

I wonder why some people in this world struggle just to stay alive. but some....they ask for death?

Wish that my stupid jokes will cheer u guys up. Just wanted u guys to be happy, so that i'll be happy.

andre-chan, te quiero mi amigo. Dont fell asleep in sitting position anymore or you gonna get a real back ache!

What is Life?

"take care of yourself if i'm not here anymore someday, " he said.
"eat and dont let anyone harm you, " he continued.
"what is life? why am i the one i am now? " he then asked.

I wonder was he worried or was he scared
was he in stress or was he sad....
sad for being who he is
sad from not being loved...

Life is a place where we both exist
a view with sun up so high too bright to see
and moon's hanging in the sky trying to speak
that through the moonlight
you'll feel me
and through out the night
i can see you on the other side.

Yes it's filled with lies, deaths and hatred
yes it's full with inequalities, pain and tragedies
but look beyond the clouds and think about heaven
isnt life is actually wonderful and fine
which without it you and me wont even be alive.

So stop searching for who you are
you are yourself and will not be replaced
stop searching for the so-called truth of life
it did nothing good but just driving you insane.

You are special
like everyone else
we are nothing like the sun
nor like angels
but we are SPECIAL
dear friend, i believe in you
and believe in me you should
YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE.

Fei tan the ' Pei Tan Chuk'

Okay, it's time to blog again. Gary (Vaashant) told me to get a diary instead of writing blogs since my purpose is to kutuk those guys and praise my hamsters. lol. Gary ar Gary, get me a diary and i'll stop this crap lo. (neh....slow slow wait la).

Tonight's blog is about my dearest hamster- Fei tan. She very pity 1...always kena curse by Henry and Alex just because she's fat. But fat is not a crime ma, isn't it?

Fei tan : I'm fat but it's not a crime wat!!

So can you guys see now? She's just a hamster and you guys hurt her feelings. Kesian sekali....

Fei tan : I'm sleeping and i'm cute. Better than those Gerbils next door. Yippie!

Fei tan : My mommy sayang me very much and i like to lepak under the closet... it's my territory!

Fei tan : Uncle Henry is just too jealous because i know how to say gong hei fatt choi which his Gerbils are unable to do that... (For your information, they are a bit kurang upaya)

Yes? Wanna know more about Fei tan since she's too cute? Check out her lil profile below!

Fei tan's Little Profile:

• An orange winter hamster
• Single and available (divorced with Ham tan since he's an alcoholic that always bite her when he's drunk)
• Loves to eat (likes sharing food with her mommy)
• Lazy
• Loves lepak-ing (under milky's closet)
• Will fall asleep whenever you massage her tummy or neck.
• Basically, she's fat, clumsy, intelligent and she's MINE.