Achmed the Dead Terrorist

Hey guys, check this out! It's super duper funny! I KILL YOU!!! LOL.

Achmed the dead terrorist by Jeff Dunham.

Thanks to Gian for his recommendation. :)

My life in the past few months

My blog was dead for quite a long time. I was too busy with exams, assignments and stuff. And somehow i dont have the mood to blog. :(


But no matter how busy i am, i still managed to have some fun. :P

A Trip To The US Embassy & Wisma Putra

For those who dont know about what i'm studying, well, i'm taking a course called International Relations. Sounds bombastic hor? But I dunno what can i do with it in the future. I dont think i'm smart enough to be an ambassador. :(

But still, i love this course. I learned alot about world politics and how states compete to gain power, retain it and use it. It's all about power. POWER POWER POWER! And also the most important quote that goes like this: there's no permanent friend or enemy, only permanent natinal interest. I totally agree with that.

So back to the trip. I spent a night in Thari's place because her place is nearer to the faculty. So both of us cramped into a small single bed and we had some girls' talk until late night. It wasnt a wise choice because we have to wake up early the next morning. And the worse part is i cant really sleep coz early in the morning before the sun rises, there'll be some prayers going on. It's like a morning call for me. BUT I DONT NEED IT! i just wanted to sleep...

The trip was fun. I met the US ambassador in Malaysia and i realized that they are quite good with words. With that, i mean manipulation of words. Whatever they say, it sounds like it's for world's stability and peace. But you decide yourself... whether it's true or not. That's actually a compliment. I should learned that. That's how we survive. We have to do whatever it takes. THE SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST.

But those Malaysian diplomatic officers are the worst. No charisma no preparation and they're talking nonsense. They are not taking things seriously. So you know why this country is going down.

I hate to talk about them. so enjoy the pics and let's end this session here.

Ice Skating With My Girls In Sunway Pyramid!

I forgot when. But it's definitely just few months ago. Me, Thari, Qing and Haanu went ice skating in Sunway Pyramid. It was my 1st time ice skating and what i wanna say is..... IT WAS SO FREAKING SCARYYY!!!!!

I was so scared that the blade of the skating shoes will cut off my fingers and i was so scared of falling down! It must be painful ok? somemore it's so damn slippery.... Geli nia!

Actually we did quite alot of things that day. Before we went skating. We had our lunch in 1901. you guys can see how we posed with the hot dogs in the pics. Then we went shopping. And after tired from skating, we went and had our dinner at Nando's. So basically what we did were: EAT-SHOPPING-SKATING-EAT AGAIN. It was very fun to do that actually. :p

MOONCAKE FESTIVAL + BBQ

It was mooncake festival!!! I love mooncake festival. We can eat mooncake with different flavours, colours and shapes... and most of all we can play TangLung (lantern)!!

see those small tanglungs in the pics?? i bought them few weeks before the festival. I was so excited and i cant wait to play. :p

Tim and his gf organized a bbq at Rawang. So all of us drove there to EAT & PLAY. We took our tanglungs and walked along the street. There was no one there except for few cars that passed by. I mean those drivers must be thinking that we're crazy. And it's kinda scary actually walking on the street at night with the reflection of the light from the tanglung on our faces. And we're scared that those wild dogs in that area will come and bite us to death. LOL.

So basically these are the summary of my life for the past few months. Well actually there are more. But i lazy to blog d... :)

Shadi's 22nd birthday!!!

birthday cake that milky bought for me. It's my favourite black forest and it's cute! but it doesnt taste good :(

" Go shadi, it's your birthday... we're going to party like it's your birthday~" ( something similar to what starscream like to say to me) LOL. Yes yes, a girl named Shadi was born on 14th November 22 years ago and that's me!

I'm officially 22 now!

My 22nd birthday was great. Not perfect but i had lots of fun and i was happy ( well, i didnt get drunk and wasted my big day :p). Milky bought a cake and a ring for me; Vaashant, Thari and Tim bought me a huge cake from secret recipe and we went for karaeok session for 4-5 hours; Qing and Hanu got me a birthday card and the best present for me this year is the warm wishes from my mom and brother, ALSO MY MOM's SPONSORSHIP FOR MY TRIP TO VIETNAM!! She was trying to make my dreams come true ( i was dying to travel ). But too bad the trip had been cancelled and i'm gonna get my money back from the organizer no matter what ( Damn angry la they tipu my money!).

cake bought by Vaashant, Thari and Tim and celebration at redbox the curve!!

thari, me and milky

singing! I'm addicted to singing! even though i cant sing well... hehe.

So back to the birthday thing. I was so touched when my long lost friends send me their warm wishes on my birthday. I must be blind all these years. I've forgotten about my real friends but i care for those who are just pretending to be friend. I refer these people as "Friendnemy". Which means an enemy who acts like a friend.

It feels good when people remember about my birthday. Because somehow they make me feel like the world revolves around me. And the only thing bad about birthday is... it reminds us that we're getting older and older day by day. I'm 22 now and soon i'll be 25...30...40, 70... then it'll be time to die. ( I dont wanna die!! I'm afraid of dying... ). But what to do? Time is the only thing that money cant buy and i have no doubt that it's ticking my life away. :(

But still, I love my birthday. Even though 1114 means everyday die once in cantonese. LoL.

Pain strikes again

I cant sleep last night.

It's not like i've adopted an imsoniac lifestyle or what. But i've been thinking about her again.

I miss her and i wanted to see her so badly, before it's too late.

But i have no idea where she is...

I was robbed by 2 BASTARDS!!!

Everyone, i was robbed like 3 hours ago. As you can see at the title, i was robbed by 2 bastards. who are malays!!

I was on the bike with Milky before they stopped our bike and pointed a 'parang' at us. They took 200 bucks from us and milky's phone. We're ok but i'm so damn pissed off!! The money that they took from me, that's all the money i have. And thanks to them that from now on i can only eat bread and plain water.

If only they kill me, i'll make sure that they will go down to hell with me. It a holly month for Muslim and yet they robbed students like us? how bad is that sin that they have just committed? i wish they'll fucking burn in hell for that. I really do.

They make me hate Malays more. I'm no longer proud to be a malay even though i'm proud to be my father's daughter. From now on, all this malays bastards and bitches from my university who always discriminate and cant stop bitching about me, dont they ever dare to think they will get any mercy from me. I'm sick of being nice and quiet.

I dont care what they'll think about me. I wouldnt say that i'm a malay anymore from now on. Because i'm not. I'm not a chinese nor a malay. i'm a mix of 2 races and you guys can say whatever u want. U aint gonna bring me down.

Even the police pissed me off when we're making report at the police station. God damn it, they dont trust us when we said we're robbed by malays because they are of the same race... Majority doesnt mean that they're the best damn it!

Dont blame me.... you guys put me in this position.

Late Merdeka Entry

Hey there! i know it's late to post a merdeka entry here. But due to my passion and undying patrioticism, i'll still post it. LOL.

It's the 1st time in my life after 21 long years that i feel so patriotic. Well it's the 1st time i feel proud to be a Malaysian too ( even though i used to complain alot and have the thoughts of migrate s'where if i could, hehe). But then i realised that racism exist everywhere. And it might be even worse than what we see here in Malaysia. At least we Malaysian live in harmony due to all those differences we have, right? Minor conflict is unavoidable. And it's good enough that it doesnt leads to some major conflicts. At least for now. :)

Back to the story. So on merdeka eve i went to some street party with V and Milky at The Curve, Damansara. Lot's of local artists and DJs were there like Fish Leong, Vince Chong, Reshmonu, Jakeman and Skeletor etc etc. It was fun until we saw this!

I dont understand why. Can someone explain to me why all these Indonesian seem happier and more emotional than Malaysian? They raised our flags, sang our national anthem and heck! They even dance like some cannibal tribe in the Amazon that freaked me out.

Somehow they make me feel like i was in Medan or Jakarta, not KL. And i feel like some illegal immigrant in my own country! Oh no!

The next morning i woke up early and went to Dataran Merdeka to see the merdeka parade. So so excited because my dad took part in the parade!

So Prince Andrew were here. So did the Sultan of Brunei and the President of the Philipines etc etc.

source: http://www.thestar.com/

Ahh.....it's so touched to see how much Malaysia had developed in 50 years time after we declared independence on 31 August 1957.

Even happier to see my dad marched! (he was somewhere at the front)

And here's the pic that i love the most. The guy and his lil baby are like 100 times more patriotic than i am! Look at what the baby is wearing. Isk...Cute until can die k?

source: http://www.thestar.com/

Happy 50 years of independence Malaysia. I love my country! hiak hiak hiak.

Tragic

Mom called me yesterday. i told her about my results and she told me a sad news.

An auntie who lived so long in the same neighbourhood with us in Penang died few days ago. In a tragic accident. She's on her way to work and there's an accident on the road. She's passing by the scene on her bike and Bang!! One of the car reversed and hit her. She died 2 hours later in the hospital.

In that accident. She bite her tongue off. Her helmet went missing. The hit was deadly.

She died because of some else's fault. She died for nothing.

I didnt know her very well. But we did spoke once. She's a very soft lady and i really cant believe that she's gone.

Clearly, a man lose his beloved wife; 2 kids lose their mother, forever.

I feel sad. I cant sleep last night. I was worried and i still do now. Because my mom is riding bike to work everyday. And my parents just bought a new bike for my brother.

So dear God, i pray to You....Please please bless my family and people around me to stay healthy and happy always. Am*n.

'Skeletonship'

Why am i so skinny?

I've been eating all the time. But why am i still skinny? I dont wanna be 'skinny tree' like what stupid Joe like to call me. And dearest daddy a.k.a John, i dont wanna fly to Japan hiding in your cargo bag for 8 hrs! LOL....So back to the topic, can someone tell me how to gain weight / how to be less skinny? Please please?

Okay okay, dont ask me to drink oil or animal fat. Dont be so geli la u guys! Oil ma....u think i'm what? Oil tank ar?

Sigh....i've tried all the fattening food. Cheese, chocolate, Char koay teow and all those fried fried things. That's all my favourite. But of course nothing beats Japanese food!!! I'm crazy for Japanese food, I'll die for it. No no i dont wanna die yet... i mean i'll....well....u know what i mean?

I've been eating eating and eating....

But heck, why am i still 38kg??? Gosh.... i'm so skinny that i look like a ghost now. My mom said living skeleton is more appropriate. Nooooooooooo!!! i dont wanna be categorized as 'gang-gang of the skeletons'!! They are creepy. Sob.... Give me back my flesh!! My precious flesh....Pre~cious!!!

I guess i'm on my way to slowly evolve into skeleton too.... I look CrEePy!!!

So to all those kind-hearted people out there. This is a SOS message. PLEASE SAVE ME FROM 'SKELETONSHIP'!!! Please please please....double, triple, billion pleases.

Plagiarism from Qing's Blog

I read Qing's blog just now and i think what she says is right about 3 of us- me, herself and Hanu.


They are the one who saved me from depression during my 1st semester in campus life. Or else i probably might ended up killing myself because of homesick by now. Lol.


Well, i have n friends nor room mate here in UKM. All of my friends went to different universities while i'm the only art stream student from high school who's lost here in UKM. That's how i became a refugee. I was lucky because i met them and they offer me their hands. Until now, their room became a refugee camp where me and Thari will overnight there whenever we're alone.

Amazingly, 3 of us from different race and religions can get along pretty well. We share alot of things in common too. We like to watch BAU, Las Vegas and CSI, we like to talk in Venusian (which we dont even know what we're talking about) and we like to sing! Rain drops keep falling on my head~ Lol. Yaya, dont forget the song 'go shawty, it's your birthday....' by 50cent that we sing in Tamil version...psycho case la we.

3 of us are crazy about beaches!! We went to Pangkor Island together before and we had a great time there. And about our recent outing, we went for ice skating in Sunway Piramid when they help me to 'walk' around the skating ring. Oh yeah i hurt my ankle because that skating shoes were damn uncomfortable!!! But hey! at least i learned how to walk on ice right? =p


They always take care of me like i'm 1 small baby. Force me to finish up my food and eat up all the vege. They make Nestum for me early in the morning before we go to class. That's why i call them mommy! And it's my pleasure to be a baby forever! Evil baby like stewie in the family guy. Lol. No no, i'm not evil....i'm innocent. Hiak hiak hiak (evil laugh).

Source: http://www.art.com/

And Hanu is a great cook. Me and Qing once make some pasta which taste like raw leaves without her....bluek....Geli nia....But Hanu appeared to be the saviour. She pour pour something in to the pasta and there comes the miracle....greatest pasta ever made in UKM!!! Lol.


That's how special our friendship is. We push aside the racism, stereotype, discrimination and all the differences we have. To us, skin colour and religions are no big deal. We are who we are and we live our own life and practice our beliefs freely. They show me the greatness of Christianity and Hinduism while i show them nothing because i'm not Islamic enough. *shaking head* sigh..


And hey! What happened to our Perhentian trip? No no, i mean Lang tengah.....Is there 'spirit' still there stoping us from visiting that island??

Well Qing and Hanu, i'm not a baby anymore! I knew the 'spirits' do not exist. =p

From left: me, Qing and Hanu (during our Pangkor trip)

childhood memories

2 days after 3 of us almost died, we went out again. This time with another childhood friend of mine called Kok Keong. Alex, me and Kok Keong grew up together in a peaceful neighbourhood. I think we can be considered as some sort of life-time friends. We knew each other since we were 5. Guess how old we are now? 22!!!! Wrinkles gonna come visit me real soon!! No....

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I remember we used to go to school with the same school bus (I'll never forget that...Because Alex puke on me in that bus!! i can still see the mushrom now...eeww...). Those days when we were young, we were so naive but naughty. Kok Keong and I will bully Alex everytime we play Monopoly, cards and 'bakuli' (marbles). Then Alex will cry and ran home to his mom. Lol. I like to make him cry. I just love it!! Isk isk....no good....

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And during Chinese New year, we'll play fire crackers together. While during Mooncake Festival, we never play lanterns like normal kids do. We'll play with FIRE. Lol. We'll melt the candles and somehow make it into something like a Volcano. We"ll then spit inside the melting candles and mini explosions will occur and that cheer us up.

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I wish i could turn back time. I wish i could retain my youth. I wish people around me never grow old and die.

From left- Kok Keong, me and Alex

I'm back!!

Hello everyone!

I'm back! After few weeks without internet connection, finally i'm back for good! Lol.

Got lots of things to blog of and share share with you guys. Excited nia. =p

And Andre? How are you there in Canada? You told me you were robbed AT HOME!! And when i text you i never get any reply until now. Hope you're doing fine with the wolf.

Guess who's back.....back again.....shadi's back.....tell a friend
Guess who's back.....guess who back.....guess who's back.......( fell asleep)Zzzzz

Happy happy Saturday~

I'm suppose to blog about this few days ago. But hey, my results was too 'good' and i have to morn for it, duh...

Well, I met up with my best buddies (Bryant and his gf, also Alex) back in Penang last Saturday. We went to AutoCity for karaoke. It was fun until Avril Lavigne took away my voice!!!

After 3 hours of singing, shouting and laughing, we went for our nice nice dinner.


So we went to a nice nice japanese buffet restaurant in Autocity, Penang called 'tao'

And before we went in, i curi-curi peep inside...wow...it looks like this:

The environment was very very nice. But that's not where we sit in the end...sigh...

We ate alot....like 4 hungry ghosts. lol. what? buffet ma....must eat till our stomachs explode wat. This is my favourite Scallopps!!! i ate 11 of it!

Oh oh....dont forget the Sushi!!!

After we clear up all the food, our table looks like this: What a mess...

Then i went to the washroom before we left. Look at the sink! isk isk....cute kan?

Then we started to do all kind of nonsense outside the restaurant. That's Alex and me...the super heros!

And this one- goddess of the thousand hands!

Lol. What a lovely dinner. A happy time with my best buddies. Well Bryant already plan something for our next outing! Cant wait to go back to Penang again! lol.

Belated Fathers' Day + Screwed

Just came back from penang yesterday which is on a Fathers' Day. The long 4 hours ride were damn tiring.

I read about a Fathers' Day's dedication in Milky's blog. Well, glad that i was mentioned in the blog too where he said: "the person i love the most is my dad, mom and shahadah". I'm so touch that he loves me and i'm proud of him for the dedication.

But it makes me feel guilty for not spending more time at home with my dad but hang out with my best buddies for the whole saturday. And what i did on Sunday morning (which is Fathers' Day) was just a simple greeting for my dad. i said: "oh yeah, happy fathers day. i'm broke. can i replace the present next year?"

I'm such a messed up and miserable kid.

Even worse when my results for last semester were out later on yesterday night. The results for both my major courses were totally screwed. I mean SCREWED!! B and B-?? What the heck is that? Those 2 alphabets there make my pointer drop like hell.

Tears broke free in an instant. I cant believe this is happening to me. It's not that i skip class all the time or never hand in my assignments. The exams were even not really hard to answer. I used to get A's for my majors, so can somebody pls tell me what the hell is wrong?

I called mom up and told her about my results. I wonder whether she's disappointed. She consoled me and try to cheer me up. Talking about this makes me miss home already. The feeling of homesick that i once had is back. It's like a pain that try to re-enter my life. And it seems to me that this time, it's back to stay. Dreams broken, goals were washed away in 1 single moment...what else is there for me to hang on and continue this battle towards glory and success?

How i wish that my parents are here with me now.

Dad,

Thanks for everything you did for me. Thanks for sending me to school for an appropriate education. Thanks for still finacially supporting me. And thanks for many many things that you sacrificed for me that i didnt see.

Time passes by so quickly. you're getting older, so am i. But each and everyday, i realised that i love you and mom more and more.

I'm not a perfect daughter but i'll try to be one. I want you and mom to be proud of me someday, i'm working on it. I want to provide you guys the life that we cant afford to have before, and i'm still working on it. believe me i really do. I love u both, 'lou tao' and mommy.

Happy Belated Fathers' Day.

It's such a shame that I dont even have a picture of him with me now. I miss u daddy.
(picture obtained from www.yahoo.com)

Lost and Found

I cant manage to wake up this morning for class. Was having a slight headache.

I woke up around 9am+, it was such a wonderful morning. I felt happy and relaxing. Then i went to check out my babies. They were all sleeping soundly except for Fei Tan. She's not inside the cage like always which is normal. But wait a minute... she didnt even touch her food!? She loves to eat and yet she never touch her food?!!!? What the heck!?


I started to worry and start to search for her inside the room. No sign of her found. She's not under the closet that she likes to hide the most. She's not hiding underneath my bags. So where is she?


Outside the room? Nope....no sign of her as well. Where else can she be? It's 11.45am now and she's still missing.


I've been thinking: Why are you doing this to mommy? I love you so much. What am i gonna do without you making noise and stealing my food again? Dont you wanna share food with mommy anymore? Dont you miss me?


Then an hour later, we found you back. lol. I was so happy to see you again. Your hands and feet were so dirty and i know you're hungry and scared.


Do you know that Uncle Gary said he'll make 1 mini poster for you? He asked me to blog. He said maybe you'll surf the net and get to read my blog. lol. While Uncle Alwin said he'll buy me a new hamster. But i told him you'll never be replaced because others cant make me as happy as you did. And he can save his money now, because you're back.

Shadi: You will be grounded from now on. Less freedom for you. lol.

DreamLand

We have a house somewhere near the country side....
we have a big land, a farm
sheeps and cows are our main income
life is so relaxing....
somewhere in New Zealand or Europe
away from this cruel world
without barriers between us
happy life we live
together, you and me.

View of the dreamland from far. Houses, sheeps, us....

Our sons will be the coutry boys then. lol

What is Life (Part 2)

It's just few hours ago a friend of mine asking me all those silly questions and saying something like he gonna die soon. And few hours later.....

Andre:

" i dont know how many times I wished for death to come and pick me but she never did. "

" here my goal in existence i have a meaningless existence. i sleep, im busting my ass at my job and thats it."

"usually people dont do 9 nights of work in a row. i dont know how many people is able to do that."

"happy? i cant say if i'm happy. something is missing."

"maybe its love."

These friends of mine that i thought they're happy all the while, are not happy. One used to suffer from light depression; the other one feels like his life is incomplete with something missing. And he's lonely.

I love these friends of mine. i dont wanna lose them.

I wonder why some people in this world struggle just to stay alive. but some....they ask for death?

Wish that my stupid jokes will cheer u guys up. Just wanted u guys to be happy, so that i'll be happy.

andre-chan, te quiero mi amigo. Dont fell asleep in sitting position anymore or you gonna get a real back ache!

What is Life?

"take care of yourself if i'm not here anymore someday, " he said.
"eat and dont let anyone harm you, " he continued.
"what is life? why am i the one i am now? " he then asked.

I wonder was he worried or was he scared
was he in stress or was he sad....
sad for being who he is
sad from not being loved...

Life is a place where we both exist
a view with sun up so high too bright to see
and moon's hanging in the sky trying to speak
that through the moonlight
you'll feel me
and through out the night
i can see you on the other side.

Yes it's filled with lies, deaths and hatred
yes it's full with inequalities, pain and tragedies
but look beyond the clouds and think about heaven
isnt life is actually wonderful and fine
which without it you and me wont even be alive.

So stop searching for who you are
you are yourself and will not be replaced
stop searching for the so-called truth of life
it did nothing good but just driving you insane.

You are special
like everyone else
we are nothing like the sun
nor like angels
but we are SPECIAL
dear friend, i believe in you
and believe in me you should
YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE.

Fei tan the ' Pei Tan Chuk'

Okay, it's time to blog again. Gary (Vaashant) told me to get a diary instead of writing blogs since my purpose is to kutuk those guys and praise my hamsters. lol. Gary ar Gary, get me a diary and i'll stop this crap lo. (neh....slow slow wait la).

Tonight's blog is about my dearest hamster- Fei tan. She very pity 1...always kena curse by Henry and Alex just because she's fat. But fat is not a crime ma, isn't it?

Fei tan : I'm fat but it's not a crime wat!!

So can you guys see now? She's just a hamster and you guys hurt her feelings. Kesian sekali....

Fei tan : I'm sleeping and i'm cute. Better than those Gerbils next door. Yippie!

Fei tan : My mommy sayang me very much and i like to lepak under the closet... it's my territory!

Fei tan : Uncle Henry is just too jealous because i know how to say gong hei fatt choi which his Gerbils are unable to do that... (For your information, they are a bit kurang upaya)

Yes? Wanna know more about Fei tan since she's too cute? Check out her lil profile below!

Fei tan's Little Profile:

• An orange winter hamster
• Single and available (divorced with Ham tan since he's an alcoholic that always bite her when he's drunk)
• Loves to eat (likes sharing food with her mommy)
• Lazy
• Loves lepak-ing (under milky's closet)
• Will fall asleep whenever you massage her tummy or neck.
• Basically, she's fat, clumsy, intelligent and she's MINE.